Blogged 300 words. Deleted them.
Let’s try again.
NaNo: Not working out so well.
It’s no surprise really. I knew coming into the month that it would be a struggle to hit the required word count, so I am far from surprised that I’m averaging only about 1k per day.
The reason I’m okay with it is because this story is not one of those that I can simply channel. FALLEN was fun to write. I pounded out a quick and heavy word count because I could get into Mal’s head and channel his story. I do the same almost every time I sit down to work on CRANK. I’m in Crandall’s head 100% and Mike, nearly as much so.
I’m not in Morgan’s head yet, and that’s ok. It doesn’t mean that I won’t finish writing ABANDON, but rather, that I’ll need to work harder on it. I’ll need to write slower, and concentrate on the direction I need the story to go.
The point of NaNo is to pour out the words. Set a deadline and race towards it with no time to stop and realize that last paragraph needs to be edited. Honestly, I like to write that way anyway. When I sit down to a WIP, I reread the last section wrote, maybe clean it up, but mostly just to get the feel of the story back in my head, and then I write without looking back. Some stories tell me right up front that they’re not meant to be written like that. This is one of them. Jordan, my demon-hunter, was another. Jordan’s story wasn’t bad and it’s still an official WIP, but when I tried to write her in this style, it came out juvenile and amateurish. It’s one thing to hit a word count and have a manageable manuscript, but quite another to hit that count but then have to trash half of it because the scenes were THAT BAD.
That was Jordan. That bad. ABANDON isn’t that bad, but it is very, very disconnected. While the scenes that I have finished are great, I’m writing a little from the beginning, a little from the end, a little from the second book, a little from the fourth. This will be difficult to draw together and is not a productive writing style for me.
So to sum up this long rambling affair, I’m still plugging away at the NaNo WIP, but I’ve given myself permission to not hit the required word count. I may also pick up Jordan’s story to give my head a break from the frustration of pulling the story, little by little, from my stubborn Morgan. I think all NaNo writers out there should give themselves permission to fall short on word count if it will be for the better of the story. Last week, I lost sight of the purpose of NaNo – to write a story – if we focus too much on word counts, to the exclusion of making the story interesting, we have wasted the month and set ourselves up for more frustration in December as we try to edit a half-assed manuscript.
I’m glad I caught myself. I feel better about this WIP already.